Damaged Goods - 9781720041511

Royal Haynes has abandonment issues and she's frustrated with life. She is looking for love in all the wrong places. She struggles with chasing that American dream, just to "fit in" when she's always been an outcast. She plays a role in this image; she has to keep up with for her family and society to accept her. All the while; she doesn't even accept herself, so using sex as an indicator for love and reassurance. Royal has to go through several heartbreaks and trails to find herself, understanding life as it is; lessons. From the moment of conception, Royal had to endure challenges.While battling with herself daily to find her true purpose in life. Too often, she ponders many questions that go unanswered, though she has one best friend to help keep her focused. However, the hardest thing for Royal is facing her own enemy, so she lifted her head towards the bathroom mirror holding in her right hand: a sharp, six-inch, and bladed pocket knife, with the background noise of her own young children screaming for her attention because their mother locked the door behind her. Desperately, wanting her life to end, despite her young children needing her...Royal began to grip the knife in her right hand tighter and she begins to ask herself these final questions:"Look at my life, where would I be right now if I had made better decisions? How about, if I had stopped caring about what society thinks and cared more about what l thought of myself? God made me an outcast for a reason...I know... I know, I have a sense of humor, but this shit is just sad. ALL JOKES ASIDE... Hell! I'm tired of seeing myself ass struggling to make others happy. What about Royal? CAN'T I JUST END IT, NOW? I mean from shotguns, adulterous sex scandals, homelessness, multiple pregnancies, and a failed marriage. Aren't I tired? I've fallen on deaf ear for the last 28 years; I haven't been listening to ME....Every year there's a new broken-hearted story, but where's the prosperity? Maybe I like to live in poverty? God got greater things for me, but I didn't seek Him first, I didn't put ME first."She lifts the knife to her neck and utters, "Lord, forgive me".As she stands in the mirror; shattered, crushed, anguished and devastated with loads of heavy tears dripping...staring at the enemy and the best friend from within...Will Royal be capable of creating a new fulfilled life or will her next anxiety attack end it?

Author: Williams Johnson, Victoria Sari

Publisher: Independently published

Publication Date: Sep 16, 2018

Number of Pages: 174 pages

Language: English

Binding: Paperback

ISBN-10: 1720041512

ISBN-13: 9781720041511