A River of Secrets

Let's pretend I don't know anything

Let's pretend, I don't know mom is lying

Let's pretend you are my father

Let's pretend I'm not pregnant

Let's pretend you didn't hit me

Let's pretend you are leaving your wife

Let's pretend I'm not going to pretend anymore

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The climate in a family can get sick from the virus of untruths. My relationship with my mom and dad was built on quicksand - this taught me to easily accept the 'quicksand stories' of others. My fearful emotions were telling me that, as a child, I felt powerless to do anything about it. In my life, there was no me, there was just us. This was my soul's education. Parts of my childhood felt unsafe; I didn't know anything different. Until I did. You can't heal people who don't know they are sick. And just because it was hard to walk away, doesn't mean you can't.

FEAR keeps us safe until it doesn't. When one of us heals, we all heal. Peace is the promise.