Emergency Instructions: a memoir

Decades of mental illness has enabled me to reason with paranoia. Making associations with abstract reasoning to explain my feelings that I don't understand helps to keep me at ease. I am determined to uncover the secrecy of the Illuminati with my illness and that is pressured by time. They killed Jesus and took the ghost from him to use it as a harness for their evil. Love is what they are keeping secret and it involves homosexuality which I do not agree to. They know when I have anxiety and how much it is debilitating me and they refuse to say what is happening even though they know what is happening. If they identify my fear at this point they would be guilty of knowing for a long time. This book would prove helpful if read during an anxiety attack because you would be able to verify your paranoia instead of putting it aside because of no proof of association to reality to make sense. You can think of each sentence as an instruction to the spirit. Each sentence is not necessarily logical to the former. The song of Krishna is missing in life so you may want to sing them. They (truth) don't want to give me a job I like or a girlfriend so that I will grow happily. The contents in this book should be able to help you reason about the unknown and hopefully eventually we can apply our beliefs to resolve harm to human life and aliens that they're causing for the sake of their love-a love that god is promoting.