I Hate It I Want It - Hardback

Lonely, living in a car she stole, with money running low, still tormented by an affliction she Can't understand and impulses she struggles to control, 25 year old Lisa Hedge continues her descent into the construct of the psychopathic serial killer she believes she is meant to be, determined to document it all. After torturing and killing animals for years at the behest of the despotic voice, Lisa wants to graduate to murder. But she Can't Won't do it, choking at every chance. Because she's weak, or...

Maybe it Doesn't have to be this way?